24 Hours in the Downfall of LoveMaybe the men who kidnapped your grandmother
knew she had family in America that loved her.
Maybe they were faceless. Abstract and shifting.
The ghosts that haunt your hands.
Even though she was milk legs and spine
arched like cathedral, maybe she fought back;
Balled up her wrinkled fists into the faces of bulldogs,
lunging for every soft spot
their mothers ever gave them,
Or maybe she thought violence was easy,
and instead told them stories about round tables
and men in far away places, stories about love,
about water, about wine, about the last king
in a country that no longer exists.
Maybe she told them a feast.
Maybe after dinner she tucked in her kidnappers,
the way she tucked you in. Maybe she sang them
the ocean. This frightened them, a mother’s strength.
How thick it was, the muscle of it throbbing
in her smile, in her cupped hands
she held your picture. Maybe they had pictures
of their own. And reasons. And love. Maybe
they had the same hands. Maybe she knew
this was the end. That they were a gang of sons.
That their love was not an animal
that could be bargained with.
Maybe she understood
even as they threw stones at her, even as bruises
spilled onto her skin and tore open like wet paper.
Maybe it wasn’t the rocks that killed her.
Maybe this is why she died
before they ever asked for a ransom.